zisiang’s blog

It seems that before man was organized into society, man was living close to the nature, and it was not possible to live in a routine.

A routine of constantly occupied with various problems, with holding on, attachment and so on. It is constantly in a state of preoccupation.

We can see life, when it is moving-on :>

experiencing life is not a direction, probably is what we could do everyday :>

everyone is connected in many ways..
 

is violent the beginning to everything, or the ending of everything? I don't believe non-violent, can exist when there is violent.

Often, human were trained to do things "with intension". Intension of wanting to becoming or achieving something; as we can see violent seems to be a preferred way for many of us human. Many even treating self in many violence ways.. Only those who see the exit point, can escape by saving own-ass (haha it's so true, a close friend told me that).

Yes, we have to see it clear that the "Intension of wanting to becoming or achieving something" is a violence.

There was a time, ziping and I and another friend were having late dinner together. He explained that it was a very reasonable action to "return violence" to somebody that shows violence intention (or activity) to you. He further explained that this is the most suitable way human would treat each other.

Ziping and I laughed endlessly.

"You're trapped" ziping said..

"Tomorrow.. I want to do this.."

"I don't have enough time"

"I want to become someone ideal"

"I need time to be a wise person"

"I should have done it better.. so that I wouldn't regret"

"I think I need some more time"

"Yesterday, it was good"

"now? I can't.. I'm not ready yet"

"I want to achieve this.. someday"

"I would love to find out the truth.. someday.."

"not now.."

"I need to.. becoming something"

"oh yes.. someday in the future"

"when I'm 30 years old, I can do this"

"when I'm 40 years old, I can do that"

"when I'm 50 years old, I can do this"

"When I'm.."

"I need time to understand this"
 
 
 
Those are words we can hear everywhere from people around us. So, what is time? For many people, most of the poeple.. time is like "hope". A hope that is only virtually exist in the mind. Is there anybody who cares about "now"?
 
A friend is just about to die anytime in the hospital on serious medical condition, what do you think "time" is for him? :)
 
 

I happen to have a friend about to.. dying in the hospital. He has so many regrets.. We, started a short conversation for a while.. how would you think a dying person would express his feelings or some message? We live life in so many imaginations, he said so. But why are we just kept doing it.. repeating and making more imaginations..

This might be an urgent matter one must make priority effort into understanding and find out deeper answer of this important question (a life saving question it seems..). I told him I found out the answer.. it was some time ago actually.. I've also seen and further seeing new people found out the truth as well, which is an extremely happy thing to see these awaken people are no more struggling in imaginations. But simply too few of them around..

Imaginations in life, I'm saying. "How can one differentiate imaginations and.. reality?" he said that with poor expressions.. "I'm dying.."

One may question (including myself did that) what is life without imaginations, and “where are those beautiful things, if there are no more imaginations..?”. If, I'm just saying if.. If “beautiful” is simply our imagination on a subject, then we may conclude that the subject we thought is beautiful, will be now meaningless.

We have to make it clear, meaningless it seems.

We don't live in meaningless life, no body wants to do so. But everybody imagines he or she could “someday live a meaningful life”. But it seems there are huge percentage of friends and people in every society on earth, are somehow now living in this so called meaningless life. If you can't live a meaningful life today, then how can you be sure you are able to do so in someday? So, “beautiful” is just one of their hope to further creating hallucinations.

The word “Beautiful” has lost its meaning in case if this is true..

We live in too many imaginations daily and every moment, aren't we? Too many friends around felt into the pool of suckness, not being able to pull off because wanting to become somebody, but ended up with a wannabe. How come? There are times when we feel bored, then we get something to do. Do we see that we've set ourself a new trap into further creating imaginations in the mind? Things will not be genuine if we started off something with “bored intention”. Have you seen beautiful poems written by someone who's bored? Or have you loved someone, because you are bored or lonely?

There is no time for further wasting. So many random things happens in life, how can you miss it? Life, is not a philosophy. Human, does not live life in some theories (haha like machine). How many out there has thought about being consciousness to appreciate things in life?

I've recently met a beautiful someone who told me about the meaning of the word “wannabe”. Supposing, everyone wants to live a life. But life starts only when you've decided to live it.